Journal with Jesus

Lord I’m sitting here tonight just a little over 24 hours from returning to a country that I know you planted in the core of my heart. I’m not sure it’s that country is so much different from lots of other places in the world, I’m just sure that as much as anywhere I’ve ever been I saw your face there.

I imagined you right there in the middle of every single pizza party and childs game, I imagined you cupping their faces in your hands and looking into their eyes. I imagined you sitting beside the bed of the wounded and dying and holding a mother as she so badly wanted to make her baby well. I saw you in the hungry and I felt you in the weak. I felt your hand on my back pushing me forward, your cheek on my cheek reminding me you know what it feels like to mourn with those who mourn, I felt your heart bottle my tears, and I heard your voice speak quietly in the depths of me telling me this is what you made us to live for.

What will it be this time God that steals my heart, that captures a part of my being and helps me to recognize it as the purest truest form of worship to you when we lay down our lives for the sake of someone else. It’s not that my sacrifice really ever ends up being a sacrifice, it’s more a joyful release for something far better. God will it be the little girl who watches from a distance this time and finally because of the love You show decides to come closer? Will it be the face and eyes of a little boy who allowed my human shaky voice to sing with Him and claimed a part of me I didn’t know existed on that dirt floor in a newly painted house that day? Will it beside a bed blowing bubbles, will it be in an orphanage with children who so desperately need to feel your love? I don’t know where I’ll see you this time Lord, but this one thing I know, if I look you’re sure to be in every one of those places.

There’s a difference in the journey this time God that has so increased my joy. I know that this is still all about me going away to the high places with You, but this time I get to take so many people who’ve taught me about high places along. I am delighting in the fact that I’ll look to my left and to my right and we’ll walk this together. My heart wonders where they’ll find you in this place. Will it be building a playground for orphans who will watch with delight as someone builds something for their sheer pleasure? Will it be feeding a village of people deemed some of the poorest of poor who need to feed their children and might not have been able to had you not provided a way for us to help? Will it be in momma’s beside babies who hurt? Will it be in quiet moments of retreat with You? Will it be in a small little church with no apparent charm of it’s own which fills with your glory when Your Spirit unites us? God where will you be?

Help us to look…help us to see in every single mile in every single face in every single touch with our hands or with our hearts! With kingdom eyes and kingdom hearts we one more time lay down our filthy rags for your greatest treasures. Thank you for this awesome privilege, please don’t allow us to take one second of it for granted. May we seek and find you above ALL else!!